No secret that I have some challenges and I have a script. The script is meant to help me help myself, I guess.
I see a psychologist every week. We do cognitive behavioral therapy and we slowly work through the way I see the world.
It is all very well to have a quirky outlook on the world, but sometimes it helps to have someone assist you in how you process the information you have got coming in. Sometimes a chicken crossing a road, is not always just a chicken crossing the road. On the hand the chicken crossing the road is not a plot against you. It’s just a chicken crossing the road.
December was December. January seemed to start way too soon. Was up and running too fast. I have been feeling edgy, anxious and a bit “funny” and it has started to climb. I thought it was a December thing, then a January thing, but now I am wondering it if is February thing.
I started wondering if I am heading for another little “break” and I am not quite ready to go down the rabbit hole so soon, after coming back from the last little trip.
I knew I was not feeling great, I just did not know why. I was taking my meds. I was doing my therapy. I was doing the work.
I made an appointment with my Pill Doctor – first appointment I could get was for today (I booked this in January already.)
I keep my medication in a little tupperware dish. It keeps everything together, makes it easy to slip in to my bag, or to put in my cupboard away from the kids. Works well.
I take it with to doctor’s appointments, as if anyone asks, I can open it and say, I take two of these, one of these, and one of these.
They always ask, and I never know the names. Tupperware in bag a better idea that you think.
Today was no exception. Pill Doctor obviously knows my script, as he wrote it. But he started asking to find out whether I was experiencing side effects, and just to touch base on what I was on.
So I go: “I am taking one of these in the morning…”
Dr Pill Doctor: “That’s wrong, you should be taking three Zoloft, not one of the Serdep….”
Me: “When I received this from my chemist I thought it was wrong, so I called back and asked him, and he confirmed that he had given me the correct stuff and the correct dose. I even took the box back to him and asked again. He again said that it is correct at one a day of Serdep – I said the grammage did not seem right, but he said it was!”
Dr Pill Doctor: “I am sorry it is wrong, the script I gave and that you were on since June is Zoloft and three of them a day…. so you are on 1/3 of what you are normally on, and have been on since June last year ……”
Moer, I am annoyed/angry/pissed off.
Clearly a taking-your-meds-101 error!
I have been “struggling” since December, and kept wondering what the hang is going on here. I was desperate to get an appointment with Dr Pill Doctor as I thought maybe he could order a set of blood/hormone tests as clearly there was really something wrong.
Before June 2011 I felt like shit, after clinic and meds and August 2011, I was definitely feeling better. Things were stabilising and I felt like i was getting a better grip on what was going on.
November I saw Pill Doctor we agreed to keep script the same, took script to Chemist. Chemist said that I should swap the Zoloft for the Serdep. And that is where it went all a bit very wrong.
Chemist put me on to 50mg and I was on 150mg before. When I queried it he said that it was correct. But being me, who feels awkward to put my hand up and say “er, that is wrong…” telling my Chemist that I think he made an error, was not exactly easy. When he told me twice that he had not made an error, even though I still felt that something not quite right, but I decided that I am clearly wrong, so I nodded, went home, and took my pill.
The problem is that I have not been feeling “quite right.” My anxiety and stress has started to climb, and I have been looking around for what could possibly be the problem.
I have been convinced that “the slide” is starting again.
I find out today that my chemist is actually an idiot and cannot read a script. My Pill Doctor wrote the new script out and wrote on it in fairly legible copy DO NOT USE SUBSTITUTES!!
I am glad that my medication has been adjusted and hopefully in about 4 – 6 weeks I will start to feel a bit better, and get back on to the right road.
I am so chipped off that I have been feeling this amount of “breaking” for the last 4 – 6 weeks which has been totally unnecessary and could have gone horribly wrong.
I am so angry that when I said that something was not right, my chemist did not take the time to go back and recheck the script and what he had given me.
I am sure I will see the happy side soon.