I really forgot ….

I am quite a creative person, but I get impatient with many aspects of  “being creative.”

I love other people scrapbooking, I can’t bear the packing out and packing back process, so I have never scrapbooked.

I love the idea of preparing lavish cakes and cupcakes.  But I know a lady who I can buy from which is far easier than me making anything.

I am creative.  Unfortunately I am about as lazy as shit drying in the sun.

I love photography.  I really do.

I started doing shoots on weekends in 2011, and as nervous as I was about fucking them up, I enjoyed walking away with the bits and pieces of people’s lives.  I did it for about a year.  It was time-consuming.  It tapped in to my greatest fear, which is meeting new people, engaging with them, and then the stress of producing something, which I could fuck up by just setting the wrong aperture.

I liked that I captured a moment through a lens.

I liked being there to see stuff.

I liked the fact that sometimes I saw details that other people might have not seen or disregarded.

For me photography is a hobby.  Even when I charge a fee it barely covers the time it takes me to go there on a weekend, and the babysitters bill.

So photography was never about the money – it is about something that makes me happy inside my soul.

Of course it appeals to my social phobia, and being able to be somewhere, but at the same time hide behind a lens.

The part about photography that is not always realised is the editing time.  A shoot of 2 hours, can often result in 4 – 6 hours editing.  When you are doing it as a hobby, and not a form of income, it can really be a challenge to find the time above work, kids, alcohol, chocolate easter eggs, drugs, reading, trying to start a multi-billion rand business with my metal giraffe, and finding the time to sit and do edit reams of images

My lovely, gorgeous and probably one of the people I love the dearest in the world – Judith Cross – agreed to do a Maternity Shoot with me some time ago.  We did the shoot on the Saturday, it was fkn hot, and she was a star.

I dragged her around, and at some point she was pole dancing with a tree, which I thought alone was worth a prize!!

On Monday she was puking and throwing blood and faeces all over the delivery room, as she pushed Benjamin Cross in to the world.

Today (Benjamin is nearly at first year University) I was sitting going through some of the images, and it reminded me how much I enjoyed being part of someone’s life from the other side of the lens.

There are so many fantastic/wonderful/talented photographers out there, and really I cannot compete with their skill and dedication levels.  I am a total newbie.  I total almost-set-my-SLR-on-automatic-when-the-going-gets-too-tuff.

I really do miss it.

I really do.








Old wordpress site which I have not updated in ages:  http://celestebarlow.wordpress.com/

I took some photos of The Stiletto Mom some time ago – and I was really happy with how they turned out.

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  1. Oh Celeste , you need to do this again. You are so very talented

  2. The Blessed Barrenness

     /  April 19, 2013

    You are very talented Celeste! I have always loved the photo’s you take!


     /  April 19, 2013

    I must admit I was really shocked to read about your social phobia as I never picked up on this when you captured my family and I. You are indeed a very talented, creative person and I want to encourage you to take up the challenge of doing photography as a paid job. Many, Many, Many people come into our home and admire the images you have taken of my family. They were so beautiful we canvassed them and they are stunning.

    • reluctantmom

       /  April 19, 2013

      Thank you Romaine!

    • Tania

       /  April 19, 2013

      I totally agree with you Romaine. She should definately make time to get it going as a paid job. I am also very VERY pleased with the photos RM took of My Daughter, My Mum and I.

  4. Charlotte aka The Stiletto Mum

     /  April 18, 2013

    I really loved the photos you took and some how I have been at your house and you’ve been at mine and we went to the blogging thing and each time I forgot to get the disk.

    I know this is a hobby for you, but I would really like to book another shoot with you at the same location with the girls. Just to see how much we have changed.

    Ps: I think that “sometime ago” will be 2 years in July.

    Mail me if you willing to drag your ass out again.

    • reluctantmom

       /  April 18, 2013

      Dude, you I will drag my arse for! Any where any time!


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