Everyone I know is brokenhearted

A link to this blog post popped up on my Facebook feed — it is a long post, but worth sitting down and reading.

The blogger is:

My name is Josh Ellis. I’m a writer, editor, former newspaper columnist, full stack web designer and developer (with a focus on PHP, JS, Node and the Meteor framework) and musician. I’ve traveled and lived all over the world, but I currently make my home in Yakima, WA, the “Palm Springs of Washington State”.


This is probably one of the truest, most profound, most painful, most concise, most clear, most what-the-fuck-is-happening here ones you are going to read in a long time.

Read it now, or bookmark to come back when you have some more time.


All the genuinely smart, talented, funny people I know seem to be miserable these days. You feel it on Twitter more than Facebook, because Facebook is where you go to do your performance art where you pretend to be a hip, urbane person with the most awesomest friends and the best relationships and the very best lunches ever. Facebook is surface; Twitter is subtext, and judging by what I’ve seen, the subtext is aching sadness.


I’m not immune to this. I don’t remember ever feeling this miserable and depressed in my life, this sense of futility that makes you wish you’d simply go numb and not care anymore. I think a lot about killing myself these days. Don’t worry, I’m not going to do it and this isn’t a cry for help. But I wake up and think: fuck, more of this? Really? How much more? And is it really worth it?


In my case, much of it stems from my divorce and the collapse of the next relationship I had. But that’s not really the cause. I think that those relationships were bulwarks, charms against the dark I’ve felt growing in this world for a long time now. When I was in love, the world outside didn’t matter so much. But without it, there is nothing keeping the wolf from the door.


It didn’t used to be like this when I was a kid. I’m not getting nostalgic here, or pretending that my adolescence and my twenties were some kind of soft-focused Golden Age. Life sucked when I was young. I was unhappy then too. But there was always the sense that it was just a temporary thing, that if I stuck it out eventually the world was going to get better — become awesome, in fact. –

See more at: http://zenarchery.com/2014/08/everyone-i-know-is-brokenhearted/#sthash.44zsdu2C.dpuf

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  1. Alexandra

     /  August 7, 2014

    So this totally resonated with me. I have been feeling this way for a couple of years now. I posted it on fb and it turns out that quite a few of my friends are feeling that way too – the thinkers, the more sensitive ones…

  2. The Blessed Barrenness

     /  August 6, 2014

    There is a lot of anger and sadness in the world. I’ve been feeling a little down of late too, all the meh going on in the world has had a massive impact on my psyche, more than anything my overwhelming emotion is one of fear. There is just so much uncertainty about everything.
    Going through a divorce is harsh. I did it at age 26, with no kids, so I’m guessing it’s 5 times worse for you, kids and longer time together, but my experience of divorce literally wrung me out, I was emotionally and physically finished by the end of it and it took a while to rebuild.
    Hang in there, this WILL pass, even though it may not feel like it right now!

  3. I hear you loud and clear. It does seem although there is an underlying anger and fear and sadness in everybody. And as you say sometimes you do think “maybe just end it all”.


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