We are off to Drakensberg to celebrate the wedding of John and Natalie. We are so thrilled for them, and dead excited to be part of their wedding.
We fly to Durban in the morning. Then we drive up to the Drakensberg (I have never been to the Drakensberg and my geography is pretty sketchy, so I am even sure I am 100% sure exactly where it is. But Kennith seems to know and we have a GPS, so no doubt I can read my Kindle and not worry my pretty head about details like directions.)
The idea is to stay there and do what ever it is that people do in the Drakensberg, attend the fabulous wedding, and hang out with a group of friends who will be joining us there.
Next Friday we drive up to Johannesburg, and stay there a few days. Seeing more friends and just hanging around sort of stuff.
On Sunday we get to squeeze into a stadium with a few thousand people screaming for Bono, The Edge, Adam Clayton and Larry Mullen. Of course I am sure that Bono will stare into the crowd, and see me back in row 175 and seat 54. and pluck me from the crowd so he can sing me a personalized version of “With or Without You!”
Nothing like a bit of delusional ism to keep you going.
The thing about this trip is we are doing it sans kids.
Usually there would be a split about now in terms of reaction.
Some moms are going to go: “Fabulous, lucky you, wish I could get a break from my set!”
Then there is the second set who are dialing ChildLine as they read this and thinking: ”Who does this woman think she is abandoning her children to go gallivanting all over the country side. The scandal. The indignation!”
Then there is a third set which would usually gasp a bit and go: “I could never leave my junior, I couldn’t be away from them for that long.”
I usually am okay with some adult time away from our kids, but I am actually not okay with it right now. It is also a long time. We leave Friday and we are back Monday after next.
It is too long, and I have been stressed and anxious this entire week, and right now I actually do not want to go. I miss Isabelle too much already and I have not even left the house, so this week is going to be torture. I appear to have moved from the first set of moms to the third set.
I felt out of sorts yesterday, and last night and this morning I have been totally out of sorts.
I woke up around 2am this morning and just could not sleep. I just felt anxious and stress, and wanted to wake Kennith up and tell him that I was fine to fly to the Drakensberg to attend the wedding, but then wanted to fly home, and then I would fly back to attend the concert, but I did not want to stay away that long.
But I didn’t as I knew he would probably freak his bean, and then we would have a huge fight.
It wasn’t like I had not known about this trip 4 months ago. I had. I just had not paid much attention to it. But it is here now.
My bags are packed, but I am loathe to leave tomorrow morning, but there we go, I am leaving, and it is meant to be this great week, but I am dreading it. Listen it is a great week that has been planned, and actually I have had to do nothing. Kennith has organized everything, all I am doing is arriving, but the problem is that because I know how much I am going to miss the kids – and how bad I feel being away from them – I think will take a bit of the smile off this week.
So there we go, I am out of here for a week. I am going to miss my kids crazy, and especially Isabelle. Just tying this is making me feel even sadder.
As my penance I am going for a full body wax at 7am. I thought I would do it without taking a Syndol just as punishment for abandoning my kids.
<just as extra penance, I was so out of it this morning, I put this stuff called AO Sept – which is like acid for your contact lenses – directly into my right eye ball this morning.
It burnt like a m*therf*cker. I can’t actually tell you how much it burnt without the aid of profanity.
I thought my cornea was being dislodged from my eyeball. We are not talking mild discomfort, we are talking silent-scream-while-you-bang-your-feet-on-the-floor-and-claw-at-your-eyeball pain! I actually called my optom friend because I thought clearly it would require an eyeball transplant or something.
I spent the day walking around with an eye that is so blood shot it looks like I am bleeding to death – I have just started a new job, so that looked totally fantastic. It was agony and I was in mild to severe discomfort for the entire day.
It is still pretty red and feels pretty grim – oh joy, possibly it will hide my crying tomorrow morning…>