I am probably the world’s worst eater according to a schedule person.
I seldom have breakfast. I often skip lunch, and if I don’t feel like eating for dinner I don’t. Food, right now, is not a high priority in my life. I am not sure why, but I seldom feel an overriding need to eat.
It is more of a “I choose to eat” and often I don’t choose to. And I can sometimes get past two days and realise I have not eaten anything. I just forgot.
One would think I would be über skinny. Sadly no. I sense that not eating but drinking copious amounts of wine, probably cancels out the low calories on the one hand.
I bounce between feeling super wired and hyped to being so lethargic, I just want to lie down … for a long time.
I hate drinking water. I drink a lot of Earl Grey tea. I put ice in my wine, and that counts as water intake. I often forget to eat. I often forget to go to the bathroom.
Last night I met with Lizel who is going to become my “better health, better diet” coach. Bless her, I am not sure she fully understands the uphill journey she has ahead of her with me, but she is very positive.
We chatted about eating and life, and how it impacts your body, and your everyday life. The realisation that many common illnesses are diet related. I nodded, and then leaned over to sip my wine.
I am starting on some Herbalife products tomorrow.
I figure worst case scenario I start and if I drink 3 x shakes in place of meals (that I am not eating anyway) at least it is a start. Gets protein in, and is very little effort, as long as I don’t make a song and dance about it.
The main point for me right now is to find an alternative for food that I can get in, so that at least my body is getting some sustenance, rather than doing this “famine/feast” thing it has got going on.
I have also bought a really pretty glass water bottle and placed it on my desk, with my cheap-arse glass and it is my aim to drink water during the day. For me that is a bit of a revolutionary behaviour.
I usually don’t drink any water – at all – so the fact that there is a bottle on my desk is already quite an achievement. I figure to start I just need to finish one bottle a day – 750ml. If I can do that, then maybe I can graduate to 2 x bottles of 750ml, and we can see where we go from there.
Part of the aim is to lose weight, I’d like to lose about 10 – 12 kilograms.
But I also just want to feel better. I don’t feel better right now.
I really need to find a way to get some energy back. My energy levels are all over the show, and probably directly related to my eating habits. If I can get that down to some sort of “order” then my blood sugar stabilises and logic tells me it will assist with my mood, my energy levels and maybe help me with my depression and anxiety disorder.
I get that a shake = a help for depression is a bit of a stretch. But right now I am willing to give it a whirl. I am also hoping that my IBS/Spastic Colon gets some support as well. Lizel has suggested some Aloe stuff to take in the morning. She promises is it lemon zesty and I will really like it. I am always pessimistically suspicious, but I am giving it a go.
I promise never to wear a pin badge “Lose Weight Now, Ask me How!” If I do, I give you permission to take the badge off my shirt, and stab me between the eyes with the pin part.
So that’s my plan. Herbalife. Water. Shakes as meal replacements. Not amending my wine intake at all.
Day 1 is tomorrow, so here we go.